Quitting Sucks!
- April 16, 2008 - 5:39am
- Mood: Grrrr
- Playing: Napalm Code
- Watching: Napalm
- Listening: DI.fm Vocal Trance
- Reading: Robots and Empire
- Drinking: Cold Coffee
- Eating: Nothing
So six days ago I decided to quit smoking, and since it has sucked. 
I have removed probably one of the most enjoyable things from my life. That may sound a bit melo-dramatic, but when you spend almost every waking moment sitting at a desk working, the occasional smoke break is like heaven on earth!
I think it is worse because I did not quit for any of the generally accepted 'right' reasons. I'm not overly worried about my health (although been told I should be). I'm not trying to improve my life by shedding unwarranted vices. I'm not engaged to someone who really wants me to quit. I'm not under massive pressure from family and friends to quit.
No, I'm quiting simply because of the expense. Mainly because I'm sinking every bit of change I have in Napalm, which in itself is a good thing. Can't say I'm not dedicated, but the point is that for the most part, I don't want to quit! Which of course, makes the entire process 10x more annoying. 
Thankfully I have held it together enough as to not completely freak out on anyone yet. Although I must admit I have been really close to snapping quite a few times.
So yeah, if you haven't already noticed, this blog entry is pretty much useless, except to allow me a rant. But hey, you don't have to read it, and venting can be healthy.
Back to working on the News system I go.
Kisses and much love to everyone out there. Damn I'm horny! 
Is that the lack of nicotine talking? Hmmm.
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ɤpinchscorpio
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ӝspot
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ɤpinchscorpio
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ɤBigSexyChicken
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ʊIrishancest
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ɤSilamai
Never Played Half-Life
"Jesus, trapped in a burning honkey-tonk, and the jukebox is downstairs. Somebody's gonna suffer for this."
ӝspot
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ɤSilamai
Never Played Half-Life
"Jesus, trapped in a burning honkey-tonk, and the jukebox is downstairs. Somebody's gonna suffer for this."
ӝspot
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ɤSilamai
Never Played Half-Life
"Jesus, trapped in a burning honkey-tonk, and the jukebox is downstairs. Somebody's gonna suffer for this."
ӝspot
Chief Instigator
The cloves I smoked were some of the most expensive on the market and they were only $6.50.
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ɤSilamai
Never Played Half-Life
"Jesus, trapped in a burning honkey-tonk, and the jukebox is downstairs. Somebody's gonna suffer for this."
ӝspot
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ӝNirach
Worrying is about as effective as chewing gum to solve algebra
Smoking's only going to be cool when it doesn't involve death :B
Keep your eyes peeled for the average gamers.
Nothing's broken, it's just functioning differently.
ӝspot
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ӝNirach
Worrying is about as effective as chewing gum to solve algebra
Keep your eyes peeled for the average gamers.
Nothing's broken, it's just functioning differently.
ӝspot
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ӝTheHalcyon
Pirate Cap'n, Reckless Thinker, Riot Mother
The physical craving only lasts 2 weeks. 14 days. After that, all of the chemical dependency is gone, and it's only psychological from there on out. And God knows you're entirely too stubborn to give in to something just because you THINK you want it.
You've got so much support behind you!
Haly
ɤBigSexyChicken
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ӝTheHalcyon
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Haly
ɤBigSexyChicken
Nintendo Fanboy
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ӝTheHalcyon
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Haly
ӝrotane
Retro Gamer
I've quitted a few times before, but that was always temporarily. Mostly just experiments to see if I could still quit. Granted, I never smoked much to start with (a package a week probably), but even then it was hard. So you have my sympathy!
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ɤAnxeit
Stole Your Kill
>.>
But just keep on trekking, you'll be over it in a month or so. Good luck!
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ɤArchaicStigma
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-AS
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ɤGrimesFace
Is In Your Base, Killing Your Mans
Fart into the microphone
Physics is broken!
ɤKlink258
Has The Flag
Chew gum, lots of gum. Even if it's lost its flavor. Missing the break? Take a jog.
Good luck with quitting, just stick with it!
ӝspot
Chief Instigator
Thankfully I rarely leave my desk, so that part is not as bad as it could be.
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ɤshrapnelhunter
Code Possum
ӝspot
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¤Sangue
Is laying mines for the good of all.
1) I don't have a support system to encourage my progress.
2) If I get "emotional", it's either bite someone or light up.
3) I buy smokes that taste like grapes, peaches, or vanilla and are wrapped in a lovely brown, and only cost me $0.94 a pack before tax.
It may be a slow killer of my lungs, but at least I don't have to look at the packs and think, "Damn it, I'm blowing $4 a pack on these death-sticks!"
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ӝspot
Chief Instigator
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¤Sangue
Is laying mines for the good of all.
Yesterday I bought 3 packs (Cherry, Vanilla, and Rum flavored) and just used loose change.
Oh yes, I am awesome.
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ӝspot
Chief Instigator
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¤Sangue
Is laying mines for the good of all.
Also, they are actually little "cigar" things. But I call them cigarettes regardless. >:
Cigars are big in my world. The makers can bite me. :>
You can either get a brand called Stampede (limited flavors, and I think the trying out of odd flavors is the amusing part) or a brand called Deans (more flavors [even clove]) and they all cost in the $0.64 to $0.94 range per pack.
:>
Cheap is great. :>
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ɤdjh2048
Hot Girl In A Robo Suit
What did work? Trident gum, and pencils/toothpick. Smoking was more of a habitual thing to him, and is for most people so he started chewing gum whenever he wanted a smoke... or popped a pencil/toothpick into his hands where a smoke would go. Eventually they became his addictions, well.. the gum did, but it's better than 65$ a carton!
Best of luck man, quitting can be hard as hell but I think it's worth it in the end.
- Dan.H
ӝspot
Chief Instigator
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ѻyashachan
Never Played Half-Life
The amount I smoked increased quite a bit before I quit (as you said, it can be nice to get up and take a break for a smoke... me and my boss/mentor did it often once I started smoking at work). And then quitting coincided with going to college, moving into my dorm, and all that other shit that goes along with starting freshman year of college.
But Zyban is an amazing thing (same thing as Wellbutrin, which is what I actually take).
ӝspot
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ѻyashachan
Never Played Half-Life
ӝspot
Chief Instigator
Damn!
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ѻyashachan
Never Played Half-Life
ӝspot
Chief Instigator
Still though... even with insurance.. $5 for Wellbutrin is amazing!
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ѻyashachan
Never Played Half-Life
Kaiser generally tries to give people the cheapest generic they can find, which is some of how they offset the cost of people who have copays like mine (it's also possible that only Kaiser employees get copays like that). Which turns out really badly sometimes, like last spring when they shipped me Budeprion instead of Bupropion. So I got to find out the hard way (right before finals) that my body doesn't think Budeprion and Bupropion are the same thing!
Other fun shit that Kaiser likes to do to me right before finals is first have Wellbutrin be out of stock (I got it set up so they have to give me the brand name stuff
ӝspot
Chief Instigator
Been there.
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ѻyashachan
Never Played Half-Life
I actually thought 30 pills would be more than a $133.
ӝspot
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ɤyllianos
Grew Up On Goombas
Pop that corn. That Corn. Pop it.
ӝspot
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ɤcivetadei
Camper
You are quitting cigarettes.
Not pcp.
Or heroine.
Or meth.
Addicts out there have it much more harder than you, and if you were on those drugs, you would have to be held in REHAB. Away from home. Away from family and friends.
Nicotine patches work. They did for me, anyway.
I can make you disappear with one phone call.
ӝspot
Chief Instigator
In the same way that most of the people addicted to worse things are in that situation because they chose to start for some reason. And therefore they have to deal with the shit that goes along with breaking those addictions.
I don't really count my blessings that I have it better than they do, because I made a choice to have it better then they do. They obviously made the opposite choice.
I am not remotely trying to say that they do not have a harder time of it. Simply making the point that there is not connection between myself and someone who has chose to take a step to get hooked on something worse.
Somehow that all makes sense. Much like jenga.
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ʊchillinvillain
Is In Your Base, Killing Your Pokemans
i don't want to quit.
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